A Start with No Ending
August 2015
The story began when I transfer to another company. I though I will not be able to attend the first day since I had trouble with my medical, good thing I was able to submit the necessary information before the first day starts. August 13, 2015, I first laid my eyes on him, the man who caught my attention for the very first time. The feeling? I can't explain, i feel the sparks and everything, the sounds and it was like the time at the moment stops. But he? he didn't even noticed me. Then the day started. Well first day so you need to introduce yourself. I heard his voice for the first time, then I saw his face side view and I was like "so it was him in that way". Well I think it was past 8pm when he first talk to me and my heart it did really skip a bit, his question? He only ask my name and my salary offer , well of course, I did answer and ask the same question as well. I was a bit happy he initiate talking to me first. (well if i know that was just normal getting to know your colleague)
It was Mid September when he first called me through phone, at first I questioned my self with why he is calling me that time, I was in a mall at that moment. I just can't hide my smile when I saw his name flashing on my phones screen, I answered it just to know that he is just testing my phone as I told them I can't receive any text messages earlier.
It was end of September, we are getting close to each other, we were always texting and chatting on Facebook, we even texting each other while drinking with friends, pretending were not into each other. Then one weekend came, he told me he likes me and then I told him, the feelings mutual. I was so happy at that moment. From that day on, he kept on calling me through phone or messenger. We always spent more than an hour talking about everything. He always make sure that I always felt loved and beautiful and being taken cared of by him. The same story goes on everyday, every day for almost a year. I am so happy to be with him, spending a lot of precious time together. Laughing, eating somewhere, watching movies. He did everything that makes me happy, I am so happy, I felt like I am Princess whenever I am with him and him as my Prince my light and shining armor. I do really want to spend the rest of my life with him.
Then that time comes, he told me, he is going to leave the company, a lot of problems happened on his side He lost his time with me, he lost giving attentions to me. I am so sad, very very sad. I don't know what to do. Everything seems like a fairy tale to me and then one day, everything ended. No more sweet messages, no more calls and everything. It hurts, everything hurts.
Up until now. I still loved him even when it always hurts, I still missed him. I always pray to see him again, to have that precious moments with him again. I wan to go back to that days that we were both okay, that we both have each other. I'm willing to trade everything I have to be with him again, to be with him forever. But faith doesn't allow me to have everything that I am asking for but I am still hoping another change will be given for us again. Now, I am still a prisoner of that past. My mind and my heart was left to that happy days of our lives and I can't do anything about it. It pains me to wake up everyday knowing that he will not be there for me anymore.
First Update : June 17, 2016
Last Update: June 17, 2017
The story began when I transfer to another company. I though I will not be able to attend the first day since I had trouble with my medical, good thing I was able to submit the necessary information before the first day starts. August 13, 2015, I first laid my eyes on him, the man who caught my attention for the very first time. The feeling? I can't explain, i feel the sparks and everything, the sounds and it was like the time at the moment stops. But he? he didn't even noticed me. Then the day started. Well first day so you need to introduce yourself. I heard his voice for the first time, then I saw his face side view and I was like "so it was him in that way". Well I think it was past 8pm when he first talk to me and my heart it did really skip a bit, his question? He only ask my name and my salary offer , well of course, I did answer and ask the same question as well. I was a bit happy he initiate talking to me first. (well if i know that was just normal getting to know your colleague)
It was Mid September when he first called me through phone, at first I questioned my self with why he is calling me that time, I was in a mall at that moment. I just can't hide my smile when I saw his name flashing on my phones screen, I answered it just to know that he is just testing my phone as I told them I can't receive any text messages earlier.
It was end of September, we are getting close to each other, we were always texting and chatting on Facebook, we even texting each other while drinking with friends, pretending were not into each other. Then one weekend came, he told me he likes me and then I told him, the feelings mutual. I was so happy at that moment. From that day on, he kept on calling me through phone or messenger. We always spent more than an hour talking about everything. He always make sure that I always felt loved and beautiful and being taken cared of by him. The same story goes on everyday, every day for almost a year. I am so happy to be with him, spending a lot of precious time together. Laughing, eating somewhere, watching movies. He did everything that makes me happy, I am so happy, I felt like I am Princess whenever I am with him and him as my Prince my light and shining armor. I do really want to spend the rest of my life with him.
Then that time comes, he told me, he is going to leave the company, a lot of problems happened on his side He lost his time with me, he lost giving attentions to me. I am so sad, very very sad. I don't know what to do. Everything seems like a fairy tale to me and then one day, everything ended. No more sweet messages, no more calls and everything. It hurts, everything hurts.
Up until now. I still loved him even when it always hurts, I still missed him. I always pray to see him again, to have that precious moments with him again. I wan to go back to that days that we were both okay, that we both have each other. I'm willing to trade everything I have to be with him again, to be with him forever. But faith doesn't allow me to have everything that I am asking for but I am still hoping another change will be given for us again. Now, I am still a prisoner of that past. My mind and my heart was left to that happy days of our lives and I can't do anything about it. It pains me to wake up everyday knowing that he will not be there for me anymore.
First Update : June 17, 2016
Last Update: June 17, 2017
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