Thoughts for Words

August 2015 The story began when I transfer to another company. I though I will not be able to attend the first day since I had trouble with my medical, good thing I was able to submit the necessary information before the first day starts. August 13, 2015, I first laid my eyes on him, the man who caught my attention for the very first time. The feeling? I can't e x plain, i feel the sparks and everything, the sounds and it was like the time at the moment stops. But he? he didn't even noticed me. Then the day started. Well first day so you need to introduce yourself. I heard his voice for the first time, then I saw his face side view and I was like "so it was him in that way". Well I think it was past 8pm when he first talk to me and my heart it did really skip a bit, his question? He only ask my name and my salary offer , well of course, I did answer and ask the same question as well. I was a bit happy he initiate talking to me first. (well if i know that was just n...

I am now feeling it. I am a looser of love. Loving the person who can't love you back is a total insane. I am aware from the beginning yet I still believe in that 0.1% that he will gonna choose me. I am losing my hope now, there's no any other way but to move on. But how can how can I move on if I am already in love with him? Why he did left me hanging in the dark. There's too many questions to ask but I should ask myself first that why in the beginning you already knew the result why you still push it. And now? you're nothing but a broken girl in a new years day! Feelings suck. I dont want to have it anymore. I hope someday, I will be able to write happy thoughts and share it with everyone.

Could you please stay if I ask you to stay ? Those were your words to me I took the risk not sure of the ending. Or it might just we've crossed each other path. I'm falling and I'm not sure if you'll gonna catch me in the end. Should I continue or stop?

Be thankful for what you have. You earned it in a good ways. Share it with others. ❤   ✿  

I make mistake. I am not perfect. I've done things people will not believe I would. In the eyes of other's I always look fine with no problem. Deep inside I am hurting and asking for somebody to rescue me. I'm just simple. I want to be happy and face all the things that I am afraid of. But at the end of the day. I'm still not so perfect. Imperfections are beauty. I don't care if you don't believe it or not at all.

Life doesn't have forever. Everybody is leaving.   Everybody will just pass by in your life. When you already love that person, when you already are a good best friend to that person.  There comes a time that you two needs to get separated either by a good or bad reason. As times goes by, the friendship, the closeness will change and when you get to see that person again, everything will now change. However, despite the changes that comes. When somebody leave, someone will come though. Life is a constant change. Just enjoy each every moment and cherish the memory forever.