Still

I am still thinking of him.
It's been 3 months since it happened.
I wanted to move on but every minute of my life, it is him who I am thinking.
It is him who I am always praying to be with.
I really wanted to get out of this labyrinth, but I can't.
I don't know what am I supposed to do now.
I am so depressed....Wishing this would be over soon.

Hope I will feel better in days, weeks, months, year. I don't know when.
He is driving me crazy.
We had closure, through text only. For me it is not yet enough.
I want more, I want more from him.
I miss him and it's killing me!

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