Over?

We both are a member of same facebook group. His name just popped up after few months of not being active. You know social media?! My heart beats fast when I saw his name, I didn't react, pretending to be cool and already got over him, so I just seen his messages to the group. March 12, we saw each other again, it was because of a common friend who gave birth to a cute little boy. One of my friends and me are patiently waiting inside the mall, then he came, I am sitting on a bench near the supermarket while one of my friend is texting where the hell he already is since we're waiting for him for almost an hour that day. Then he came, I knew from afar he's been looking at me, I didn't look back and I suddenly face towards his direction. Before I can still manage to smile, a smile of a thousand watts but at the moment, I didn't even, though I 'd really want to. We accompany him first in buying gift for her cousin. While walking, I kept on moving away from him, I still am afraid to face him due to what happened before. Then he suddenly  poked me and I gave him a smile, a fake smile. We rode in his car, we weren't able to went to my friend who gave birth. He kept on talking to me and I dont want to response back, it's killing me inside, I want to hug him and cry but I can't. I want to talk to him about a lot of things, of what happened, the good things and the bad things juts like the old times, but that is not going to happen anymore no matter how bad I wanted it, it cannot be. We're over and I should be happy for him now.

It was April, I stalked his facebook and I saw him with one of the post tagged how happy he is. And then I decided to unfriend him. After a few moment I kept on convincing myself that what I just did was the right thing to do and I should have done that already long time ago.

Up until now, I still misses him and think of him everyday. I keep on praying to just forget him instead.